Thinking...

So, I have fifty million things on my mind. I can't think straight because I have things on my mind all day. I try to do my school work, but I have too much in my head. I wish there was like a switch I could flip to turn off my entire thought process except what I need to do the task at hand. I am very tired right now. I have had a trying day today. There are things I wish I could change that I can't. Oh well. I guess everything happens for a reason. We'll see how this crazy life turns out.

So, I just got back from a Rascal Flatts concert, and I have to say that it was pretty awesome. I hadn't been to a concert in such a long time that I had actually forgotten how much fun they are. Now all I need to do is go to a hockey game. I don't know if Laura would go with me though. Hmmm... We shall see. I hope someone would go with me because I would really like to go see one. Who knows, I have to see when and where people are playing first. How exciting. Maybe I will go see one soon, but I don;t even think they are still playing. :( Poor me. Maybe next season. Fun fun. I love hockey. It is such an exciting game to watch! The fights are pretty awesome too. Well, so good time at the concert and maybe a hockey game in my near future. That's it for the night. I'm really sleepy.

http://worldnetdaily.com/index.php?fa=PAGE.view&pageId=96138 Thank you to my Dad for sending me this disgusting article. I mean seriously, can people really be so blind? Give me a freakin break. To anyone who thinks that Obama is their Messiah, I pitty you when you die. You will burn in hell for all eternity. I will die and go to heaven with the real God and look down at you at laugh. Ok, that's not true, but you know what I mean. I just hope that all of you really think about what you are doing and saying. I have faith in this country. I believe that if people will open their eyes to what is really happening, they will see the real troble we are in. This country was founded on beliefs that we must all holf true to and keep alive in our hearts. That said, I pity anyone who believes a single word that comes out of that awful man's mouth. He is a liar, a fraud, and pretty damned close to the anti-christ. There is a biblical reference for you! If you want to make him something having to do with Jesus Christ, that's as close as you can really get. My husband will be oing to Iraq very soon. I just hope that Obama does not do anything drastic that gets my husband killed. He may think that he is God, but I will continue to worship MY God, the REAL God. You worship whoever you want. Good luck with that, by the way.

I am so tired of my husband's family. They think they know everything and have such nerve as to say everything they think we need to change. Their lives are so messed up, but they don't focus on fixing their marriages or their financial problems, OH NO! That would be too easy! They have to know everything, but then they want to criticize every little detail of my life. Who the hell are they to tell me how to live my life? Doug are I are doing the best we know how to make our lives happy. I can't say the same to them. Elizabeth, for example, is so eager to tell me that I should be going to school and working because she does it. What she fails to mention is that she has people at her house constantly who clean and take care of her house. She doesn't even do her own freakin laundry! Give me a break!!!

Fights

So, me and Doug got into a fight. It seems like we have been at each others throats for a few days now. He is just being so dang sensitive. Anything I say, he thinks I'm biting his head off. Yesterday he asked me to do something, I couldn't hear him over the sound of the washer, so I yelled "what?" Then he is like never mind. I didn't understand why he wouldn't just tell me, so I kept asking him what did he want me to do so I could do it for him. Then he tells me that he wanted something but I bit his head off, so never mind. I don't get it. He's acting like he is PMSing or something. If I don't say every word with a cherry coating, he gets so upset. He says that I am being rude, but I don't see it. I think he is just blowing things out of proportion. He is being so touchy. I don't understand. Maybe there is something else going on that I don't know about, but I don't know. UH!

Ouch!

Today my back and I are not getting along. I have been sitting in front of the computer all day, and apparently my posture has not been too hot. So, now my upper back is KILLING me! I am hungry and tired, and I want to eat but I can't because we are going to dinner in a little bit. How pathetic! I wish we had something hat I could munch and be satisfied now but still hungry later. Unfortunately, I don't. Anything I can eat like that is extremely fattening. Like cookies, bunuelos, or candy. Maybe I will make myself a hot dog. That's not so bad. But, then what if I am not hungry later. Plus, I am getting really self-conscious about my weight. I saw a picture of myself and I swear every day i look more like my mother. She isn't the thinnest person in the world, and in this photo I looked very large. I need to start watching that. I haven't been gaining weight, but I think I have been gaining inches. If I could handle not eating, I would so go anerexic, but my body won't let me not eat. In fact, I'm feeling kind of weak right now just because I haven't eaten real food today, just a bunch of garbage. :(

Time Alone

I find it almost amusing how people can feel things that don't really make sense. Right now, my husband is away training in California with the Army. He has not even been gone for a month, but I miss him terribly. As I sit in our home, I feel as though I am not myself. I mean, I always knew that I missed him when he was gone, and that he brought the best out of me. I'm always a little cranky when he's not with me. =) But I never realized how I actually feel like a piece of me is missing. I feel like even though I act like myself, mostly, and do all the same things I would do if he were home, I do not feel the same. Sometimes, I feel like a totally different person. For example, usually with my school work, I try everything I can to get as close to perfect a grade as possible. The other day, I had to do some reading, and I just could not get into it. I knew I had to do it in order to understand my assignment, but I really didn't care. I just sat there, half reading and half just totally lost in space. I couldn't focus, I couldn't think, I couldn't do anything. I guess when they say someone is your better half, they really mean it because I really do feel as though half of me is missing. My good half, my happy half. I wonder if he feels the same....